Half Man, Half Biscuit

Female. 22. Mauritius.
Soap&Skin, Katatonia, Evanescence, Agalloch, Blackfield, Placebo, Gotan Project, Dornenreich, System of a Down, The Civil Wars, Exilia, Les Discrets, Agrypnie, Walls of Jericho, Peccatum, :Of the Wand & the Moon:, King Creosote & Jon Hopkins, Joy Division, Austere, Opeth, Interpol, Le Trio Joubran, Enigma, Dead Can Dance, Shining, Ayreon, Porcupine Tree, Coldplay, The Cranberries, Calogero, Coil, Carissa's Wierd, Lisa Gerrard & Pieter Bourke, Epic45, Zola Jesus, Paradise Lost, Alcest, Burzum, Crime In Stereo, Estatic Fear, Nirvana, Chelsea Wolfe, Emilie Simon, Orphaned Land, Neurosis, Kratein, When Mine Eyes Blacken, Amesoeurs


-
All images are property of the original owners. I make no financial gain by posting them here for others to enjoy. If you however own the rights, and are opposed to like minded people finding pleasure in your efforts, message me and they will be removed.

-
Be warned that the content of my blog changes with my mood.

"I’m so odd, and I’m so limited, and I’m so different from the ordinary human being—so you say. I have a strong suspicion that I’m the simplest of you all, and that its my extreme transparency that baffles you. I dont think I ever feel anything but the most ordinary emotions."

— Virginia Woolf, from A letter to Ethel Smyth

"“The next suitable person you’re in light conversation with, you stop suddenly in the middle of the conversation and look at the person closely and say, “What’s wrong?” You say it in a concerned way. He’ll say, “What do you mean?” You say, “Something’s wrong. I can tell. What is it?” And he’ll look stunned and say, “How did you know?” He doesn’t realize something’s always wrong, with everybody. Often more than one thing. He doesn’t know everybody’s always going around all the time with something wrong and believing they’re exerting great willpower and control to keep other people, for whom they think nothing’s ever wrong, from seeing it.” - David Foster Wallace"

 

Reblogged from tannerthnyou

Reclusive socialite. He is prideful and often thinks he’s great, but in other aspects of life he feels like he is lacking or is never good enough.

I want to learn how to play Twinkle Twinkle Little Star but I don’t want to end up Mozart.

I want to go to university, but I don’t accidentally want to get like a PhD or something.

>You will not accidentally get “too bulky” by lifting weights. If it was so easy, everybody in the gym would be big. Instead you see only a few well built people. It takes years of hard workouts, strict diets, and additional substances to look like what I hear people call “huge and gross.”

Women, lose that fear you have of getting too bulky or muscular. It’s a myth that you’ll get “jacked” by lifting weights. Your bodies do not have the same hormonal response to lifting weights as men’s bodies do, so lift away.

Bike, skate, play sports, lift weights. Eat healthily and you will not put on extra pounds, instead you’ll start shedding body fat and getting that “toned” look you’re looking for.

I tend to obsess over things I’ve just become interested in for a few days/weeks. I talk it to death and annoy the absolute shit out of everyone I talk to about it because it is SO much… and then I just…stop. I stop talking about it. I stop caring.

i’ve lost multiple chances of getting into long lasting relationships in the past because it seemed that i was disinterested in the guys when in reality, i couldn’t remember to do things or would get distracted by unimportant stuffs.

I say things which totally mean the opposite of what i mean. Extremely talkative when engaged; can’t finish sentences; can’t sustain an argument or debate because of working memory problems

Always changing the topic in conversation, or going back to a previous topic, or blurting completely off topic / inappropriate things.


The constant sense of anxiety that my behavior has offended someone, screwed-up a project, or that I will encounter a huge problem that seems to come out of nowhere initially, but in hindsight turns out to have been preventable if I’d have noticed X, Y, and/or Z.

Never really “missing” people, even if I care about them. Not keeping in touch. Out of sight out of mind.

It makes it really difficult to maintain long-term friendships, especially because I’m a woman and frequently communicating with friends is expected. It is really difficult to explain to a close friend that the reason I didn’t call them back in eight months is not because I don’t like them, but because I just forgot. I don’t mean to forget. I still miss them and think about them. It’s just that whatever I’m doing right now always seems to interrupt.

Taking way too long in the shower because of the vivid daydreaming

Despite good spatial skills, getting lost as a result of not paying attention to where I’m going.

Delayed sleep phase (late to bed, can’t sleep because of all the thoughts, late to rise)

behavioral addictions, especially reading, internet

Giving people all my attention or ignoring them totally. No in-between. The fluctuations between the two states can happen on the order of seconds, days, months…

Impatience. Going to something exciting like a sporting event and then wanting nothing more than to leave and go home halfway through.

Complete lack of positive feelings associated with small accomplishments that involve drudgery.

hypersensitivity to certain types of touch (tags on clothing…ugh. I also dislike socks/shoes touching my feet constantly, but that’s probably just me.)

Not remembering arguments.

Being bad with money.

A disconnect between my actions and my brain’s reward system, after completing a high stress task the feeling of stress takes days or even weeks to pass and lacking the feeling of “accomplishment” that motivates other people.
Example: I recently finished my exams, and yet I still have a knot in my chest almost as if I should be studying for another exam that I’ve forgotten about.


Inattentive

Opposition to authority i.e.: managers, bosses, etc.

The constant starting and never finishing of any project

Education breakdown and exhaustion with studying for long periods of time

Speech Anxiety

Can only focus on the big picture and not the details

I have little or no motivation for work (when I was working), relationships with friends or family, or goals for that matter

I constantly over think in my head and fail to express the real me. It’s as if i am one person in my mind, but in another when i speak, and it kills me that no one can truly see who I really am.

The way I think vs. the way I talk and act are completely separate from each other which causes my anger which in turn inverts it into depression on myself

The failure to act on ideas and goals, and be actually self-aware of it

Everything I learn I can’t use it as effectively as other people can

Attention span is not long enough to carry on an argument. It affects me most of the time, but when it doesn’t, i start to realize how easy it is to argue when i am able regurgitate exactly what the opponent said 2 minute ago in order to contradict him or her.

Long term memory is also faulty due to my working and short term memory, so I remember things in an unclear way. In a “you know you’re right, but you can’t explain why” kind of way.

Intimate relationships suffer because I miss someone when they’re not around, but I get bored with them when they are around.

By thinking I am different I create a barrier between “me” and “them” leaving me feeling like I might be awkward or stupid or too hyperactive etc., which then leaves me to think I am being judged.

Feels like the brain is some sort of web browser infected with mal-ware popups occurring every second

Satisfaction in aggregating tons of data and information in my head all at once

Can’t remember the 1st thing I was focused on because by the 4th or 5th distraction I can’t remember the first thing I was focused on anymore

Existential depression

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.